Playing around with makeup today trying to distract myself from negative thoughts. I've been at my parent's house for the past few days and I go back to Leeds tomorrow. I love living in Leeds but I just don't feel welcome there I'm not sure why. Trying to network is hell for me. I have to find musicians for my college projects but nobody seems to want to work with me and I always feel that people don't take me seriously. I am a lot older than most of the other students and the only girl in most of my classes and I just feel lonely a lot of the time. Anyway I only have 6 weeks left of uni till the year is finished then I will need to find a job which I am really stressing out about. Life of a social reject is no fun.